Last Friday, I sent a message out to my contacts requesting support for my upcoming journey to Vancouver. I have been asked to present at ISEA 2015 and my recent funding request to Creative NZ was not accepted. That is a story in itself and I’ll leave that story for another time. But rather than say, ok, I can’t go, I decided to put it out there – and ask for help.
Between then and now, Monday morning, I have received an overwhelming amount of support!
As I sit here planning my journey, and what importance will go into my suitcase hehe, I wonder about many things and I am humbled. I am not totally at my target, but I trust that I will be when I leave on Friday.
My first response of support was moments after I sent my email. It was from a lovely local woman who had never supported anything like this before – she just wanted to help. She also forwarded my email to a list of her friends. Soon after, a dear friend in Arizona messaged me, she wanted to help too. Early Saturday morning I received a call from Denver Colorado from another dear friend (at 3.45am NZ time – bless you Dan) to offer support. And just this morning, an envelope was hand delivered to my door. Money was hand delivered yesterday also. I have received support from people I have never met – in Melbourne, in Hastings – these people who are artists themselves who know what it is like to be an artist and who wanted to help. And support from local friends right here in (not so sunny at the moment) Gisborne, another friend in Auckland and a sister from another mother in Hamilton. I am grateful.
Updated: Tues 11th afternoon – another koha from dear friends who live in Awapiko and from home – South Taranaki – with love – I am grateful.
I also received a message from someone who said they couldn’t support, and I want to mention this because I appreciated this message also. I always knew that there would be people who couldn’t and that is ok too. There was no expectation that anyone would give me money for my journey. But I needed to put it out there anyway, and ask.
The act of asking reminded me of putting a post out into cyber-sphere four years ago for my rock a day project 2011. I remember that day clearly. Dec 31st 2010. I deleted that post five times before I let it go! The fear, the fear and oh the fear of rejection! But I did it anyway, and look what happened.
So I’m absolutely blown away to say the least! Still wondering but also ACCEPTING that there are times where people want to help and that I should accept and receive with grace and humility because the gesture of love through giving to another should be openly received and accepted with love. And so I receive with much gratitude in my heart.
It was difficult for me to ask, I have never asked like this before, but I learnt a huge lesson – that if we don’t ask, no one can ever respond to the call for support. And not asking means we stop the flow of others wanting to give.
So thank-you to all those who supported and also those who took the time to read my message and those who will read this too. I always believe that those who are meant to connect, will connect.
This mandala image I created in response to all you wonderful people who have made this opportunity a reality. Created with gratitude and love.
Vancouver – I will see you soon.